Maggie Green and Penny Pax - An Unconventional Love 02 - MissaX Subtitles

00:00:08,460 --> 00:00:09,I g***t into the bathtub.

00:00:10,700 --> 00:00:11,I cried.

00:00:26,000 --> 00:00:29,It was as if he was washing the man off
of me.

00:00:29,980 --> 00:00:34,The same was back, and I welcomed him
wiping me clean.

00:00:34,800 --> 00:00:36,I knew I was forgiven.

00:00:37,390 --> 00:00:38,We didn't speak of it for months.

00:00:39,710 --> 00:00:41,But my heart had changed.

00:00:42,430 --> 00:00:43,I needed excitement.

00:00:44,010 --> 00:00:47,It was a requirement, just as important
as air and water.

00:00:48,950 --> 00:00:51,I also needed to love my husband.

00:00:51,770 --> 00:00:53,But I lusted for someone new.

00:00:54,770 --> 00:00:59,I don't get it. You felt ashamed, but
you did it again?

00:01:00,030 --> 00:01:06,Well, I've started to kind of see the
shame as a turn -on. You know, it's...

00:01:06,130 --> 00:01:07,because it's wrong.

00:01:10,110 --> 00:01:11,What?

00:01:13,170 --> 00:01:16,I understand. I totally understand.

00:01:16,890 --> 00:01:21,Mm -hmm. There are things that you,
like... Live through to understand.

00:01:21,970 --> 00:01:22,Mm -hmm.

00:01:23,870 --> 00:01:24,Yeah.

00:01:25,130 --> 00:01:29,I mean, you're not judging me or
thinking any less of me, are you?

00:01:29,650 --> 00:01:32,It's not my secret, and it's not my
place to judge it.

00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:36,Besides, I have my own secrets.

00:01:38,240 --> 00:01:39,I had s***x with Chad.

00:01:42,420 --> 00:01:47,And I've been trying for over a year to
make it all right, and yet it's not all

00:01:47,780 --> 00:01:52,right. I know what I did was wrong, and
I can't take it back.

00:01:53,060 --> 00:01:56,Like that night that you had with that
man, it changed me.

00:01:58,680 --> 00:02:02,You had s***x with your stepdad? I didn't
judge you when you were playing your

00:02:02,620 --> 00:02:03,husband as a cuckold.

00:02:04,320 --> 00:02:06,No, no, no. I'm not judging you.

00:02:06,620 --> 00:02:10,I'm sorry if it came off that way. I'm
just surprised.

00:02:10,979 --> 00:02:17,It's like you have this dirty thought
and it's appalling but you get off to it

00:02:17,400 --> 00:02:24,and it makes it less appalling and then
the thought comes again and again and

00:02:24,060 --> 00:02:30,pretty soon it's like this dirty fantasy
that you have and then it...

00:02:31,080 --> 00:02:34,Just keeps going and going, and it turns
into, like, an obsession.

00:02:34,760 --> 00:02:38,But still, you never think that it's
going to go anywhere. Nothing's going to

00:02:38,080 --> 00:02:39,happen.

00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:41,Until it does.

00:02:43,780 --> 00:02:46,Well, your husband left you.

00:02:47,240 --> 00:02:49,And that gave you an opportunity.

00:02:50,340 --> 00:02:51,No, you g***t it wrong.

00:02:52,560 --> 00:02:56,I left him, and it was at Chad's
insistence.

00:02:56,680 --> 00:02:58,And then Chad pursued me.

00:03:00,780 --> 00:03:01,Do you think he's in love with you?

00:03:02,340 --> 00:03:08,Well, he thought he was, but I don't
think he could love me as he could love

00:03:08,600 --> 00:03:10,girl his own age. Oh, my God. That's
crazy.

00:03:10,980 --> 00:03:13,People fall in love with whoever they
fall in love with.

00:03:14,220 --> 00:03:16,Yeah, but think of this. I'm twice his
age.

00:03:16,820 --> 00:03:19,So when he's my age, he'd have to be,
like, my nurse.

00:03:21,480 --> 00:03:22,That's okay.

00:03:22,640 --> 00:03:25,So what happened with your husband?

00:03:27,060 --> 00:03:29,Joe and I were in love, or at least I
thought we were.

00:03:30,800 --> 00:03:35,He was never very affectionate, but we
were best friends. And hey, every girl

00:03:35,740 --> 00:03:37,wants to marry her best friend, right?

00:03:38,120 --> 00:03:39,We were content.

00:03:39,680 --> 00:03:43,Not so much head over heels in love like
some fairy tale.

00:03:44,380 --> 00:03:47,Until his old friend from college moved
into town, Alex.

00:03:48,800 --> 00:03:50,That's when Joe changed.

00:03:51,940 --> 00:03:53,There were signs and I ignored them.

00:03:54,900 --> 00:03:59,I just... Dad is...

00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:01,Seeing someone else.

00:04:01,900 --> 00:04:04,I hope you know that, right?

00:04:05,640 --> 00:04:06,No.

00:04:07,800 --> 00:04:12,What? Every time I talk to him, he's
hanging out with his friend Alex.

00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:13,Yeah, Alex.

00:04:14,620 --> 00:04:18,Alex is the reason my birth mother left
my dad.

00:04:20,959 --> 00:04:21,What?

00:04:23,220 --> 00:04:26,Mom, dad is gay.

00:04:29,290 --> 00:04:34,He Alex's his old college girlfriend.

00:04:34,790 --> 00:04:40,I never imagined that he was gay, but I
did suspect that he was seeing another

00:04:40,150 --> 00:04:41,woman.

00:04:41,410 --> 00:04:43,He never came home when he said he
would.

00:04:43,910 --> 00:04:46,There were credit card bills for hotel
rooms.

00:04:46,850 --> 00:04:50,He always had a perfect excuse, and he
made me feel crazy.

00:04:51,730 --> 00:04:57,I kept questioning Joe, calling him, and
his irritation towards me turned into

00:04:57,430 --> 00:04:58,anger.

00:04:58,920 --> 00:05:01,We didn't even talk anymore. We were
just like roommates.

00:05:03,460 --> 00:05:07,The relationship was over, regardless if
he was having an affair or not.

00:05:08,660 --> 00:05:10,I think he resented me.

00:05:11,840 --> 00:05:14,Chad had seen it before with his mom,
and he showed me proof.

00:05:16,100 --> 00:05:22,Listen, I want you to understand that
this has nothing to do with you.

00:05:22,680 --> 00:05:25,It's him, okay?

00:05:25,920 --> 00:05:27,And you're a beautiful woman.

00:05:28,710 --> 00:05:31,And I thought that you would be the one
to change him.

00:05:32,750 --> 00:05:37,But he'll never admit it. And he'll
never leave you.

00:05:37,770 --> 00:05:40,So you're going to have to leave him.

00:05:44,310 --> 00:05:47,I can't. I don't believe it.

00:05:47,590 --> 00:05:50,I don't even... I know.

00:05:51,610 --> 00:05:56,I know. Your father and I, we... Yeah, I
know.

00:05:56,330 --> 00:05:57,I know.

00:06:10,890 --> 00:06:17,My marriage to Joe was falling apart,
and all I was doing was worrying about

00:06:17,110 --> 00:06:21,what other people would think of me.
Like, my mom, who thinks it's a sin to

00:06:21,510 --> 00:06:26,divorced, and there's my dad, who thinks
I can't keep a man satisfied.

00:06:27,330 --> 00:06:28,And then my friends.

00:06:28,770 --> 00:06:34,I never judged you or thought anything
negative at the time. I know, I know,

00:06:34,090 --> 00:06:39,divorce is a failure, and painfully sad,
and I...

00:06:40,490 --> 00:06:45,I felt so responsible the entire time.
Like there's something I could have done

00:06:45,510 --> 00:06:47,to keep my husband happier.

00:06:47,770 --> 00:06:48,And Chad.

00:06:48,790 --> 00:06:51,I'm sure he told you how absurd that is.

00:06:52,870 --> 00:06:53,I know.

00:06:54,150 --> 00:06:55,I'm here for you, okay?

00:06:55,470 --> 00:06:57,I'm here for you.

00:06:57,810 --> 00:07:01,I g***t you. I g***t you, okay?

00:07:02,070 --> 00:07:03,I g***t you, okay?

00:07:05,610 --> 00:07:07,There was a ringing in my ears.

00:07:07,910 --> 00:07:09,I couldn't hear him.

00:07:09,960 --> 00:07:12,I was overwhelmed. I don't know who
kissed who.

00:07:12,940 --> 00:07:14,I think it was him that kissed me.

00:07:15,720 --> 00:07:17,It felt so right.

00:08:31,760 --> 00:08:33,Mommy loves you so much.

00:09:19,660 --> 00:09:20,I know.

00:09:58,580 --> 00:10:00,I shouldn't. I know.

00:10:02,600 --> 00:10:06,He's never going to know.

00:10:07,720 --> 00:10:09,Don't be horrible, sir.

00:10:09,800 --> 00:10:13,Just between us.

00:10:14,060 --> 00:10:15,No one else.

00:12:04,410 --> 00:12:08,Yeah. Oh s***t.

00:12:47,290 --> 00:12:48,Oh, f***k.

00:12:48,830 --> 00:12:51,He has a f***g big heart attack.

00:12:52,350 --> 00:12:53,It's so awful.

00:13:43,670 --> 00:13:45,Oh, God.

00:13:47,170 --> 00:13:49,Oh, f***k you.

00:13:49,490 --> 00:13:50,Oh, God.

00:13:51,870 --> 00:13:54,Oh, God.

00:13:54,630 --> 00:13:55,Oh, God.

00:13:56,170 --> 00:13:57,Oh, God.

00:13:57,690 --> 00:14:00,Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh,
God.

00:14:00,970 --> 00:14:01,Oh,

00:14:03,810 --> 00:14:04,God.

00:14:35,750 --> 00:14:36,It's so wrong.

00:14:43,140 --> 00:14:44,What do you say, Mommy?

00:14:45,120 --> 00:14:46,I'm going to get a stepmom for this.

00:14:50,280 --> 00:14:51,That's how I'm going to show you.

00:15:58,090 --> 00:15:59,Mmm.

00:17:04,560 --> 00:17:07,It's so wrong calling you mom. I know.

00:17:11,720 --> 00:17:17,Dad would be so f***g pissed.

00:17:19,750 --> 00:17:21,He doesn't give a f***k anyways.

00:17:51,400 --> 00:17:52,Yeah.

00:18:28,010 --> 00:18:29,Oh.

00:19:38,879 --> 00:19:43,Oh my god.

00:21:51,550 --> 00:21:52,Yes.

00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:14,Yeah, right there.

00:24:14,760 --> 00:24:16,You like that baby?

00:24:17,260 --> 00:24:18,Yeah?...