Grotesquerie.S01E09 Subtitles

00:00:51,273 --> 00:00:53,We should not be doing this.

00:00:55,214 --> 00:00:57,I want to go to dairy queen.

00:00:57,252 --> 00:01:00,Maisie, I know what I'm doing.

00:01:01,760 --> 00:01:03,Pull over. It's right up here.

00:01:46,783 --> 00:01:49,We're just going to sit
here and say nothing?

00:01:49,289 --> 00:01:51,Marshall.

00:01:51,093 --> 00:01:53,Maisie is sitting out there, Lois.

00:01:53,130 --> 00:01:55,She gets paid to sit there and judge.

00:02:01,946 --> 00:02:03,Look,

00:02:04,018 --> 00:02:07,it's been a long, long
run between us, Marshall.

00:02:07,859 --> 00:02:10,A long run.

00:02:11,933 --> 00:02:16,I realized a long time ago what
was happening between you two.

00:02:17,345 --> 00:02:19,I wasn't heartbroken.

00:02:19,048 --> 00:02:23,I mean, I'd lost the capacity for that.

00:02:23,056 --> 00:02:25,Which made me understand
why you went in search

00:02:25,261 --> 00:02:27,of something else, Marshall.

00:02:27,098 --> 00:02:29,We don't have to do this, Lois.

00:02:29,202 --> 00:02:30,I didn't blame you.

00:02:30,805 --> 00:02:35,I mean, I didn't hide
how far I felt from you.

00:02:35,181 --> 00:02:38,Why wouldn't you want to be with
someone who actually liked you,

00:02:38,187 --> 00:02:41,which I could no longer do

00:02:41,460 --> 00:02:45,after you couldn't hide how disappointed

00:02:45,033 --> 00:02:46,and disgusted you were

00:02:47,004 --> 00:02:49,with our daughter's
weight gain in college?

00:02:49,075 --> 00:02:51,It wasn't disappointment or disgust.

00:02:51,079 --> 00:02:53,That was you. I was helpless.

00:02:53,951 --> 00:02:55,Hundred pounds in one year?

00:02:55,287 --> 00:02:57,It's biblical. It-it was a curse.

00:02:57,091 --> 00:03:00,Exactly. And that's when
you love people more.

00:03:00,965 --> 00:03:03,And your reaction to that made me think

00:03:03,470 --> 00:03:05,I could no longer love you.

00:03:05,374 --> 00:03:09,So, sleeping with her husband
was your way of showing love?

00:03:09,449 --> 00:03:11,Do... do... Do you hear yourself, Lois?

00:03:11,987 --> 00:03:14,Look...

00:03:14,459 --> 00:03:18,There are very few things
people are not capable of.

00:03:18,333 --> 00:03:20,You taught philosophy.

00:03:21,005 --> 00:03:26,And for the record, I will
never not be sorry about that.

00:03:29,155 --> 00:03:30,I like you, redd.

00:03:30,558 --> 00:03:32,I always have.

00:03:32,895 --> 00:03:36,She was your nurse in my dream.

00:03:37,872 --> 00:03:40,But, Marshall, I heard you

00:03:40,544 --> 00:03:43,when you whispered
in my ear in the hospital

00:03:43,450 --> 00:03:44,and wished me dead.

00:03:44,986 --> 00:03:48,Just f***g die.

00:03:48,059 --> 00:03:50,And not in a merciful way, so

00:03:50,598 --> 00:03:52,I was pushed to that.

00:03:52,935 --> 00:03:57,Well, we all know how love
can turn to hate, don't we?

00:03:58,180 --> 00:03:59,I don't want to live like that,

00:03:59,549 --> 00:04:02,in a constant state of catastrophe

00:04:02,054 --> 00:04:04,and-and-and endless rage.

00:04:04,259 --> 00:04:08,So, with regards to
you and I and the future.

00:04:10,270 --> 00:04:13,I want us to just be at peace.

00:04:13,977 --> 00:04:16,Okay?

00:04:18,018 --> 00:04:20,Here are divorce papers.

00:04:20,391 --> 00:04:22,You can have whatever you want.

00:04:22,929 --> 00:04:26,The Danish China,
the silverware, all of it.

00:04:26,269 --> 00:04:29,Anything. Take it.

00:04:29,075 --> 00:04:31,And whatever peace you can muster up.

00:04:33,517 --> 00:04:36,And I will do the same, just

00:04:40,364 --> 00:04:42,elsewhere.

00:04:43,103 --> 00:04:44,Where?

00:04:45,474 --> 00:04:48,Well, when I was a kid.

00:04:49,715 --> 00:04:51,I went to Florida with my folks.

00:04:51,686 --> 00:04:54,A little town called tarpon Springs.

00:04:56,362 --> 00:05:02,We fished, ate seafood,
stayed in a motel.

00:05:02,975 --> 00:05:04,It beckons.

00:05:04,279 --> 00:05:05,Does it?

00:05:07,451 --> 00:05:09,Now, I'm-I'm just supposed
to be grateful now?

00:05:09,556 --> 00:05:11,That-that's what's expected of me?

00:05:16,369 --> 00:05:20,I will always remember that
I loved you once, Marshall.

00:05:20,544 --> 00:05:23,Then we had a complicated daughter,

00:05:23,417 --> 00:05:25,and I g***t hard.

00:05:26,356 --> 00:05:27,Big deal.

00:05:30,397 --> 00:05:32,Th-that's the sum of
your collected wisdom

00:05:32,468 --> 00:05:34,about who you are?

00:05:34,606 --> 00:05:36,Let's set the record straight.

00:05:36,443 --> 00:05:38,"Hard" implies

00:05:38,447 --> 00:05:40,that you are still a recognizable human,

00:05:40,951 --> 00:05:44,but you are impossible to categorize.

00:05:44,024 --> 00:05:47,A chimera, a f***g beast made of fury.

00:05:47,298 --> 00:05:48,And good luck letting that go,

00:05:48,734 --> 00:05:50,because it's engrained in you, Lois.

00:05:50,638 --> 00:05:52,- It is you, Lois.
- M-Marshall.

00:05:52,608 --> 00:05:53,Let's not do this. She's trying to

00:05:53,677 --> 00:05:54,no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

00:05:54,979 --> 00:05:56,I did want you to die. You bet.

00:05:56,416 --> 00:05:58,It would've been a
f***g mercy to both of us.

00:05:58,287 --> 00:06:00,The c***t... and the a***e keel over.

00:06:00,758 --> 00:06:03,Both of us need to be dead.

00:06:04,632 --> 00:06:07,The world would be prettier.

00:06:10,143 --> 00:06:12,That's our show, folks.

00:06:37,464 --> 00:06:39,I have to tell you, Ms. Lois,

00:06:39,502 --> 00:06:41,I think the virgin Mary would forgive me,

00:06:41,306 --> 00:06:43,but this cone is heaven.

00:06:43,310 --> 00:06:46,It's-it's heaven. We should
come to dairy queen every day.

00:06:46,182 --> 00:06:48,Should we do that?

00:06:48,487 --> 00:06:51,Time to go see the kid.

00:06:51,560 --> 00:06:54,Don't know why you
won't let sleeping dogs lie.

00:06:54,732 --> 00:06:56,If you don't, you'll get up with fleas.

00:06:56,636 --> 00:07:00,That's actually two
sayings conflated into one.

00:07:03,083 --> 00:07:05,I don't know why you were just a cop.

00:07:05,354 --> 00:07:09,With that fancy education,
you could have been a dentist.

00:07:10,397 --> 00:07:12,What?

00:07:52,715 --> 00:07:54,It's good to see you.

00:07:54,619 --> 00:07:56,So... so, what is this?

00:07:56,790 --> 00:07:58,Are you here to beg
for more forgiveness,

00:07:58,660 --> 00:08:01,- to apologize more? I mean...
- Nah.

00:08:01,533 --> 00:08:03,I know I was a bad mother.

00:08:04,505 --> 00:08:07,An unforgivable one, eventually.

00:08:07,144 --> 00:08:08,"Eventually"?

00:08:08,513 --> 00:08:11,But you... Little girl, you sucked.

00:08:11,319 --> 00:08:14,And I was there for you through all of it.

00:08:14,325 --> 00:08:16,The two nervous breakdowns,

00:08:16,329 --> 00:08:18,the-the-the time you
joined a goddamn cult.

00:08:18,467 --> 00:08:19,Okay, I did not join a cult.

00:08:19,836 --> 00:08:21,- That was a group of like-minded...
- a cult.

00:08:21,439 --> 00:08:24,All the bad boyfriends.

00:08:24,145 --> 00:08:26,I was there for all of it, merritt,

00:08:26,549 --> 00:08:28,and I tried and I tried.

00:08:28,654 --> 00:08:30,So, what, all of this justifies

00:08:30,424 --> 00:08:32,you sleeping with the
man that I married?

00:08:32,428 --> 00:08:34,Of course not, merritt.

00:08:34,832 --> 00:08:38,But you were a bitch for two decades.

00:08:39,875 --> 00:08:41,And I had had enough.

00:08:41,579 --> 00:08:42,So...

00:08:43,683 --> 00:08:45,What, did you want to make it impossible

00:08:45,554 --> 00:08:47,for me to ever touch him again?

00:08:47,191 --> 00:08:48,You marked him like a dog.

00:08:48,627 --> 00:08:51,He g***t me, merritt. My ways.

00:08:53,170 --> 00:08:54,He and I had more in common

00:08:54,672 --> 00:08:56,than the two of you, if
we gonna be real about it.

00:08:56,309 --> 00:08:57,My god, did you love him?

00:08:57,878 --> 00:08:59,Did you?

00:08:59,849 --> 00:09:02,Or was he just a provocation?

00:09:02,188 --> 00:09:05,Can a crazy person actually love?

00:09:06,496 --> 00:09:08,'Cause you were crazy.

00:09:08,166 --> 00:09:09,And so was I.

00:09:09,502 --> 00:09:12,Merritt.

00:09:12,208 --> 00:09:15,The things we do to
each other, us humans.

00:09:15,614 --> 00:09:17,If you knew how bad it could get,

00:09:17,918 --> 00:09:20,maybe you would've been
less of a s***t all those years.

00:09:21,626 --> 00:09:24,That's why you stole...