Graphic Sexual Horror (2009)-english Movie Subtitles

1 00:01:05,760 --> 00:01:08,170 easy so the first time I X showed me the 2 00:01:14,978 --> 00:01:17,358 insects website I was horrified what is 3 00:01:17,680 --> 00:01:20,000 wrong with anyone that they would want 4 00:01:20,500 --> 00:01:22,930 to do something this horrible to women I 5 00:01:23,040 --> 00:01:25,059 freaked out it was like what kind of 6 00:01:25,259 --> 00:01:27,279 pervert are you okay a more extreme one 7 00:01:27,819 --> 00:01:29,524 than me because you know we all pass 8 00:01:29,724 --> 00:01:31,429 judgments but me being the kind of 9 00:01:31,900 --> 00:01:34,064 pervert that I ** I thought about it and 10 00:01:34,264 --> 00:01:35,861 I thought about it and I thought about 11 00:01:36,061 --> 00:01:37,845 it and I thought about it and eventually 12 00:01:38,045 --> 00:01:39,829 I started looking at the preview stuff 13 00:01:40,209 --> 00:01:42,509 while he was at work and after a while 14 00:01:43,269 --> 00:01:44,659 what I figured out was part of the 15 00:01:44,859 --> 00:01:46,918 reason that insects horrified me so much 16 00:01:47,118 --> 00:01:49,178 is because I really wanted to be doing 17 00:01:49,659 --> 00:01:51,899 those things but I had a lot of shame 18 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:55,269 based reactions because those are not 19 00:01:55,469 --> 00:01:57,539 things that are socially acceptable in 20 00:01:57,400 --> 00:01:57,739 any way 21 00:02:16,379 --> 00:02:18,799 is this very piece sent FBI people to my 22 00:02:20,189 --> 00:02:22,379 door my wife answered the door and I 23 00:02:24,509 --> 00:02:26,819 wasn't there they asked if they could 24 00:02:27,270 --> 00:02:29,700 see my work or something she brought him 25 00:02:30,599 --> 00:02:32,899 in short of a darkroom and stuff and I 26 00:02:33,150 --> 00:02:34,630 think they realized that there was 27 00:02:34,830 --> 00:02:36,815 nothing really criminal going on so they 28 00:02:37,015 --> 00:02:38,872 decided to turn it over to the local 29 00:02:39,072 --> 00:02:40,929 vice squad and I ended up having to get 30 00:02:41,909 --> 00:02:43,869 a lawyer to extract myself from that 31 00:02:44,069 --> 00:02:46,030 because they would not leave me alone 32 00:02:48,590 --> 00:02:50,770 this is when I knew that my work was 33 00:02:51,539 --> 00:02:53,799 somehow f***g weird you know what I 34 00:02:55,830 --> 00:02:58,030 mean like beyond p***n see her moving 35 00:03:02,550 --> 00:03:04,680 she's very much involved in it see 36 00:03:05,460 --> 00:03:07,830 you're trying to remote and acting the 37 00:03:08,030 --> 00:03:08,080 thing 38 00:03:13,159 --> 00:03:15,209 finally when I g***t the Carnegie Mellon 39 00:03:15,409 --> 00:03:17,460 in 1995 I was able to really put it all 40 00:03:20,419 --> 00:03:22,154 together because they had fantastic 41 00:03:22,354 --> 00:03:24,089 access there yeah I had already gone 42 00:03:25,490 --> 00:03:27,260 through graduate school doing live 43 00:03:27,460 --> 00:03:29,230 performances at these places in buff 44 00:03:29,810 --> 00:03:32,180 America artists and models it came to a 45 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:36,925 climax so because it was clear that they 46 00:03:37,125 --> 00:03:39,050 weren't going to allow me tenure with 47 00:03:40,969 --> 00:03:43,269 the kind of work that I was doing this 48 00:03:43,870 --> 00:03:46,280 bondage subject infused euphemistically 49 00:03:47,419 --> 00:03:49,729 and the various methods into my work I 50 00:03:51,280 --> 00:03:53,640 had a meeting with the Dean and it came 51 00:03:55,219 --> 00:03:57,639 down to a final statement for me that if 52 00:03:58,759 --> 00:04:00,914 they're not going to allow me to teach 53 00:04:01,114 --> 00:04:03,269 their children then I will corrupt them 54 00:04:07,370 --> 00:04:09,280 I was really nervous and really 55 00:04:25,250 --> 00:04:27,249 anticipating it a lot I had looked at 56 00:04:27,449 --> 00:04:29,449 the stuff on the website and it looked 57 00:04:29,509 --> 00:04:31,379 really terrifying but I kind of knew 58 00:04:31,579 --> 00:04:33,450 that it was edited to be a you know to 59 00:04:34,160 --> 00:04:36,530 have a certain amount of shock value or 60 00:04:37,220 --> 00:04:39,590 something the you know it's a creation 61 00:04:40,910 --> 00:04:43,280 you know anything is like that that the 62 00:04:43,970 --> 00:04:46,084 reality of how something is made doesn't 63 00:04:46,284 --> 00:04:48,399 necessarily correlate with what it looks 64 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:49,500 like 65 00:05:03,290 --> 00:05:05,710 can we have some close-ups of that star 66 00:05:07,910 --> 00:05:10,100 how are you doing honey you're just 67 00:05:10,300 --> 00:05:11,209 acting right that's great 68 00:05:12,199 --> 00:05:14,559 f***g great this is what I want it's 69 00:05:18,259 --> 00:05:20,049 like it's gonna be a lot harder to copy 70 00:05:20,249 --> 00:05:22,040 this it's more like Gord Christine this 71 00:05:33,920 --> 00:05:36,000 is what I want it's this struggle like 72 00:05:36,200 --> 00:05:38,280 this you know what I'm saying here it's 73 00:05:38,990 --> 00:05:41,340 like to me this is you're out of focus 74 00:06:04,029 --> 00:06:06,219 okay can I have a shot straight down 75 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:11,540 sideways the whole thing began with one 76 00:06:12,740 --> 00:06:14,985 of my cousins she had a lot of wonderful 77 00:06:15,185 --> 00:06:17,430 Wonder Woman books who was always using 78 00:06:18,529 --> 00:06:20,829 a last suit and she had this desire to 79 00:06:21,350 --> 00:06:23,600 tie me up which is precisely what she 80 00:06:24,319 --> 00:06:26,389 did one night and she also had her 81 00:06:28,250 --> 00:06:30,520 friends over her girlfriends over and 82 00:06:30,730 --> 00:06:33,100 instead of letting me out when I became 83 00:06:34,490 --> 00:06:36,374 alarmed over the fact that I had to go 84 00:06:36,574 --> 00:06:38,459 to the bathroom they continued to tickle 85 00:06:39,290 --> 00:06:41,460 me and all of a sudden I felt like I 86 00:06:42,589 --> 00:06:44,959 went to the bathroom and my tone really 87 00:06:45,079 --> 00:06:47,339 changed at that point and they became 88 00:06:47,539 --> 00:06:47,749 nervous and they did let me out 89 00:06:47,949 --> 00:06:50,249 and when I went to the bathroom and my 90 00:06:50,899 --> 00:06:52,794 pants lo and behold was probably my 91 00:06:52,994 --> 00:06:54,889 first o***m I guess you could say and 92 00:06:59,050 --> 00:07:01,200 that was really the imprinting that 93 00:07:02,089 --> 00:07:04,519 endeared me to the subject of bondage it 94 00:07:06,319 --> 00:07:08,759 was really reinforced by my Vietnam tour 95 00:07:10,100 --> 00:07:12,220 of duty up until then I was full of 96 00:07:13,639 --> 00:07:14,269 guilt and 97 00:07:15,028 --> 00:07:17,138 right over the fact that I had these 98 00:07:17,338 --> 00:07:19,449 thoughts in the American Society a ship 99 00:07:20,759 --> 00:07:23,119 went to Yokosuka Japan I went to a club 100 00:07:24,178 --> 00:07:26,448 there's beautiful Japanese girls and 101 00:07:27,119 --> 00:07:29,379 kimonos were serving sake the girl he 102 00:07:30,838 --> 00:07:32,613 was talking to me a couple of guys came 103 00:07:32,813 --> 00:07:34,501 over grabbed her and next thing I know 104 00:07:34,701 --> 00:07:36,389 she was holed up onto the stage where 105 00:07:36,959 --> 00:07:39,319 she was tied up she was stripped and it 106 00:07:39,449 --> 00:07:41,879 was very sexual and she was very excited 107 00:07:42,838 --> 00:07:44,693 by it and they made a point of showing 108 00:07:44,893 --> 00:07:46,748 that very graphically there was such a 109 00:07:47,038 --> 00:07:49,178 cultural shock if you will an alien 110 00:07:49,259 --> 00:07:51,299 society where bondage was just another 111 00:07:51,499 --> 00:07:53,539 kind of sexual expression the most 112 00:07:54,028 --> 00:07:56,308 pervasive quality of that performance 113 00:07:56,338 --> 00:07:58,358 was the artistic aspect of it the 114 00:07:59,579 --> 00:08:01,849 kimonos the lighting the attention to 115 00:08:02,999 --> 00:08:05,439 the rope technique an elaborate tie that 116 00:08:05,488 --> 00:08:07,678 had its own meaning its own form and 117 00:08:08,278 --> 00:08:10,628 I've out I think at that moment to try 118 00:08:11,069 --> 00:08:13,049 to bring that idea to the United States 119 00:08:13,249 --> 00:08:15,229 I ended up doing a lot of painting when 120 00:08:17,129 --> 00:08:19,509 I was in undergraduate school trying to 121 00:08:19,949 --> 00:08:22,019 pass that off as art which is very 122 00:08:22,219 --> 00:08:22,628 difficult 123 00:08:41,740 --> 00:08:43,930 it became a major struggle to try to 124 00:08:45,200 --> 00:08:47,160 introduce this subject matter or to 125 00:08:47,360 --> 00:08:49,320 actually study it within my own society 126 00:08:53,889 --> 00:08:56,069 this was up in the attic of my house 127 00:08:57,490 --> 00:08:59,449 this is when things were getting a 128 00:08:59,649 --> 00:09:01,609 little more sophisticated my early 129 00:09:02,929 --> 00:09:05,299 bondage to you my playroom well I would 130 00:09:06,980 --> 00:09:08,670 have the girl from in and I was just 131 00:09:08,870 --> 00:09:10,560 photographing and I never had s***x with 132 00:09:10,879 --> 00:09:13,109 him because I I could remain faithful as 133 00:09:13,309 --> 00:09:15,540 long...